Sunday, October 31, 2010

andrea hirata LOVES me! haha..

haha.

yea, Andrea Hirata seems loving me! he really loves me, indeed.. ::tongue::

he uses two names related to me: Lintang (i was born with that name!) and Enong (i dont know how Andrea pronounces it exactly, is it Enong which the E is read similar to the first E of the word Temper? or is it similar to the second E? ah, i dont give a damn to this. the point is: Enong (the E is pronounced as the second E of Temper) is my nickname when i was a child - until now, actually! i am called as Enong for sure. HAHA.

what a nice happen, right? yea, surely! :D

of course, the story of Andrea has made up is not like my life story. firstly, i am not a boy - Lintang is a boy in Andrea's story. i am not as smart as him, too. haha! Enong is a girl, but i am not as tough as her.

Andrea Hirata always has this magic words power. his books are all masterpieces. he tells a story about the bitter sweet of life and i always HEART his styles - the indefinable ones!

and this Enong character appears on his latest book, Padang Bulan and Cinta di Dalam Gelas. honestly, i've just got the book (thanks for Pherrow, you've lent me this precious book! hha~). and i've just read about 40 pages. i've found those three words my pal had sent me a text: Sacrifice, Honesty, Freedom. haha. silly me, i've recognized it recently! hey, buddy, if you read my post here, i'll say to you: i know what you mean! haha.

from the beginning, i dont want to talk about Andrea's works here. i just want to show my admiration to my parents who had given such those names for me. cause, from now on, my names have been well-known around the globe!

pssssttt, thanks for Andrea Hirata, too, who unintentionally used those names.. ;)
keep writing, Abang!

Saturday, October 30, 2010

lagi seneng, emangnya gak boleh? hehe.. :)

i dont know, i'm just feeling HAPPY! :)

kayaknya theme song aku minggu2 ini lagunya Souljah-I'm Free..
gak serta merta gara2 aku free from something or what, cuman ni liriknya lagi pas and catchy aja gituh buat ngewakilin prasaan aku..

walo, frankly, iya juga sih bisa dibilang aku free (sementara) dari tugas2 trus kerjaan2 yang selama ini ngehantuin idup aku! huahaha, lebai.. :P

yea, happy to say that i am happy~

semoga kebahagiaan tercurah pada kalian semua juga.. <3 <3

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

belajar dari sang pemberani

korban tewas di Merapi ternyata gak hanya warga setempat aja. warga setempat yang ngeyel tetep tinggal di rumahnya aja, tentunya. soalnya warga yang patuh disuruh ngungsi sih bisa selamet. kalo misal luka2, palingan gak berat2 amat. some chose to stay, some chose to be away.. their choices led their destinies..

tapi, ya itulah pilihan. mereka yang milih bertahan di rumahnya yang notabene sangat amat dekat dengan Merapi (baca: di lereng Merapi), pastinya punya alasan tersendiri kenapa mau nekat gitu. cultural matter maybe! ya, hal2 kultural yang dikultuskan dan emang udah turun temurun diturunkan. jadilah itu kebiasaan yang membudaya. kemistisan. kepercayaan terhadap hal2 irrational dan tampak ganjil. bahkan dari berita yang aku tahu, those who stayed percaya kalo Merapi gak akan erupsi! malah nyebar sesaji jadi pilihan.

cant believe it!! hey, Merapi terus2an bergemuruh.. nunjukin tanda2 mau meletus.. and they stayed?! GOSH!!

itu mungkin cuman secuil hal kemungkinan yang terjadi tentang para pemilih yang memilih menetap di tempat yang udah dicap TIDAK AMAN.

tapi lain halnya mereka yang (dengan kesadaran tingkat tinggi) mau mengungsi. mempermudah jalannya evakuasi, membantu beban petugas dan sukarelawan, meminimalisasi jatuhnya korban, serta tentu mengurangi beban mental pemerintah tentang banyaknya korban yang tewas.. (atau malah tidak?)

tapi setidaknya mereka telah memperjuangkan satu2nya harta berharga yang tidak bisa diganti oleh apapun: nyawa mereka sendiri. karena bukan hal yang gak mungkin, kalo tiba2 sang penyelamat (para relawan, petugas, TNI, dan segenap orang2 berhati mulia lainnya) malah yang kehilangan harta berharga ini..

buat aku, mereka itu manusia2 mulia pemberani. pertaruhannya bukan hal yang main2. demi penyelamatan nyawa2 orang lain, gak sedikit malah mereka yang kehilangan itu. padahal mereka juga sama2 punya keluarga yang nunggu di rumah, punya anak yang mungkin masih dalam kandungan istrinya atau lagi lucu2nya, punya orang tua yang membanggakan mereka karena emang mereka membanggakan, punya janji buat ketemuan lagi ma temen2 lamanya, punya rencana buat rekreasi ma keluarganya selesai bertugas, dan masih banyak lagi..

tapi mereka mempertaruhkan semua itu! mungkin, KEEGOISAN itu tidak pernah ada dalam kamus kehidupan mereka. mungkin terbersit barang sedikit pun juga tidak..

semoga menjadi amal soleh, hei para pemberani!
aamiin..

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

nature naturally

eruption, flood, tsunami. all at once, happened in the same time..

this is a little signal, i think. how nature reacts to what humans have done. and this was naturally what nature did also to make a move so it caused tsunami and the rest the other disasters came in Indonesia some hours ago.

terrible! even i think it is FRIGHTENING.

the nature just has reacted to whatever human beings - WE - have done..

*let's pray for the victims there, i even can't imagine if it happens to me*

Friday, October 22, 2010

hey, here we are! in this beautiful world.. in this beautiful LIFE.. :)

yea, havent you realized that this world and life is DEFINITELY beautiful?
i havent!

until on this Fiday - a day-off of mine - i woke up early in the morning, a bit slow in doing everything. i've just realized that those roosters in front of my boarding room have some kind 'pretty sound'.

yea, for sure! i've even forgotten already when the last time those roosters crow. i dont know, whether the roosters die or what so i cant hear their crows, or maybe it is my hearing-sense that DIES so it is hard for me to hear those nice sounds?

i've been a super-busy-body these recent semester. i admit it! my life goes fast, even faster and faster day by day: move fast, or i'll die.
yea, hectic days. i have no enough time anymore to give a heed of the roosters crow, of the trees shook by the wind, of the Sky looks bright, of the butterflies fly around the flowers, of short texts remind me something trivial, of lovely books i ignore, of walking slowly, of shopping, of relaxing my body and mind, of anything (beautiful)..

my activities occupy all these!

but not anymore, start on this bright shiny Friday, i realize that the world is really beautiful. do the things i do: walk slower than you usually do. take a look at the trees you've found closely. take a closer and closer look of the trunks, the leaves, the branches, the small birds on them, the shaking leaves, the ants crawl on the trunks, the fungus. just everything! you'll realize suddenly this world is just PERFECTLY created. this world is just PERFECTLY pretty.. :)

yea, give a sec for walking slower than you usually do, and pay attention to anything around you. you'll realize you're not alone. you'll realize you're lucky. you'll realize you're not the one who suffer, you'll realize you're better, you'll realize you're PERFECT..

perfect in a sense of WE'RE created perfectly by our God. all we have is THE BEST we can own. all we face (bad or good in life) is something that we'll reveal the MEANINGS someday. and they will be THE BEST, always. so do the world: it is just created PERFECTLY perfect. for a place of us to learn, understand, realize that IT IS LIFE: enjoy its every sequence, you'll reveal the mystery later.. :)

YEA!!! I heart MY LIFE SO. I heart THIS WORLD SO. what a wonderful world. SUBHANALLAH!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Vanilla Twilight-Owl City

i love all the lyrics of this song. but, here i HIGHLIGHT the most fave ones of mine.. >.</

Adam Young is soooooooooo genius!! :D

But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
Cause I wish you were here



The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly



I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you I don't feel so alone



As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear:
"Oh darling I wish you were here"
haha, finally it seems i've cited 'all of the lyrics'.. :pp
frankly, those parts always make me melt anytime i hear it.. :) LOVE it!

kalo kangen, terus mau apa?

iya.

manusiawi-lah kalo manusia ngalamin yang namanya kangen. manusia kan makhluk sosial, gak bisa idup kalo gak ada orang lain. kehidupan manusia ya dilingkupin ma orang-orang yang ada di sekitarnya. keluarga, temen-temen, pacar, gebetan, kecengan, yang disuka diem2, yang baru kenal di jalan, tukang-tukang jualan yang baik ma kita, daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan masih banyak lagi. dari bangun sampe mau tidur lagi kehidupan kita emang dikelilingin sama orang-orang lain. mau gak mau, suka gak suka. cuman orang aneh aja yang bisa idup sendirian mah.. (and i bet nobody wants to be alone, never..) :)

makanya gak anehlah kalo tiba-tiba ada perasaan kangen ke seseorang yang tiap harinya ngisi hari kita terus tiba-tiba gak ketemu-ketemu lagi, akhirnya ngemunculin si-tak-tahu-malu ini yang emang suka muncul tiba-tiba: K.A.N.G.E.N.. (gak pake ekstra band, pastinya.. hehe).

iya.

kalo udah kangen - ke siapa aja, ke yang udah tadi aku sebutin di atas juga bisa - aku biasanya ngecoba buat inget-ingetin lagi kejadian apa aja yang udah aku lewatin sama mereka. yang bikin ketawa, yang malu-maluin, yang sentimentil, yang bikin pingin mukul tu orang, yaaaaaaaaaa semuanya deh. otak aku yang dasarnya cuman menang di short term memory-nya aja ini, harus aku paksa buat inget-inget semua precious memories itu.

iya.

kayak sekarang, aku lagi kangen. hehe. inget-inget tampangnya yang suka lucu kalo lagi ngomong, inget-inget joke-nya kalo lagi nge-joke (walo seringnya garing), inget-inget kejadian yang udah dilaluin, inget-inget nasihat-nasihatnya, inget-inget cara manyun-nya, inget-inget-inget-ingetttttttt SEMUA..

iya. tapi kadang aku susah ngungkapin kalo aku sebenernya lagi kangen. tapi yang jelas, kalo kamu kangen orang-orang yang kamu kangenin, liat langit aja. sebab kita masih sama-sama memandang langit yang sama walau tempat kita berdiri sekarang berbeda-beda.

yakin aja mereka lagi lihat langit yang sama, dan kita sebenernya dipertemukan dalam satu titik pandang mata yang sama:
DI LANGIT YANG SAMA.. :)

merindu*

2010 2010 at 5:45 PM

the day we met

when the road was wet

you've left your eyes stabbed

at the pond of watery sunset

kami saling pandang tanpa bicara
sepertinya dia tahu apa di hatiku tertera
dan waktu saat itu sungguh mengerti aku
dan dia berlalu tanpa tahu siapa aku.. (lyrics by EVO-Dia)

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

bukan KARENA, tapi WALAUPUN

gak nyangka obrolan tadi sore ngebawa aku ke sebuah alam pemahaman yang lain.
begitu sederhana, tapi 'kena'. simple: bukan karena, tapi walaupun. itu kata temen aku.
filosofisnya sih katanya buat pertemanan. kalo kita temenan tuh bukannya karena dia ini atau itu, karena dia pinter, kaya, cakep, dan sederet kelebihan laennya. tapi harus walaupun dia ini atau itu, walaupun dia cerewet, dia moody, dia nyebelin, dan sederet kekurangan laennya.

hei!! these words struck me DIRECTLY i first time heard it.. :)
sounds nice..

iya juga sih. jangan2 aku masih kayak gitu? yang mau temenan atau mencintai seseorang karena karena, bukan walaupun?

ah, tapi yang jelas kita berteman dan bercinta harus karena cinta itu sendiri.. :)

*buat aku sih gitu.. hehe. ngaco..

untuk seorang wanita renta di sana

Tuhan, izinkan aku

Mengantarkan dia

Menumpahkan air matanya di Hajar AswadMU

Amin.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Linkin Park-The Requiem

God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hand
The sins of our tongue
The sins of our father
The sins of our young

God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hand
The sins of our tongue
The sins of our father
The sins of our young

*such a reminder song.. love this with a great L.O.V.E :)
this is one of LP's songs on their latest album, named A Thousand Suns, released in 2010. Chaz has really  fantastic voice here. the lyrics are simply simple but they STRIKE me always  anytime i listen to it!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

exhausted, BZ day! kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayy!! o(>o<)o

this Sunday really squeezed my body, my soul, my legs and my money all at once! haha.

how couldnt it be? i slept late at night last night, and i HAD TO wake up early in the morning due to my-duty-as-a-tenant-to-do-a-laundry program was waiting for almost a day in a case i soaked them since 22 hours ago and do not ask how stink they were! *thank God i didnt faint at them, anyway.

and lucky me, it wasnt the end of these suffers: i had to teach English at 8 a.m. GOSH!! i took a bath in hurry - i even didnt remember how fast i took a bath, less than 6 minutes, i guess. i ran quickly to dress quite smartly look for this course, i even almost was confused to wear this with that or to match that with this or to iron that then it will suit this, and this with that or that with this for almost 10 minutes until i realized that it was 15 minutes left to EIGHT!! waaaaaaaaaa~~

a bit get panicked, i eventually worn a skirt-i've-worn-yesterday-that-was-hung-at-the-hanger and a long shirt with a cardigan. sooo simple. so, what should i was confused at, actually? *weird


the day ran quickly, it was at 9.30 when i got there. i even couldnt distinguish i was teaching or babbling at the time. too many students asked me this asked me that, shouted this shouted that. it made me a bit dizzy and FRUSTRATED. but i still enjoyed it. haha. moreover, there was a good looking boy out of my class and fortunately he sat at the perfect seat - where i could glance him easily as many as i wanted, tee-hee. i taught my students for almost 2 hours then we had to stop because it was duhur. *thank God i could do a prayer and considered it as me-relaxation-time for a while*

phew!! now i'm at my lovely, cozy and shabby boarding room, again. typing and posting this, havent got me-relaxation-time even for a while, cuz it is ASAR! and i have to gather with my presentation members for Critical Discourse Analysis course to a whatchamacallit one of those activities to babble about the materials in front of class by YOURSELF.. *sigh*

welcome to my life!! huhu.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

someone says..

kenyataan yang maya,
kemayaan yang nyata.

laiknya kamu di ujung asa.

totalitas! *dari sang dosen*

dua hari lalu dapet kelas Pelatihan Penulisan Skripsi. sang dosen kebetulan S3 yang notebene udah terkenal ma 'hahah~heheh domination learning program'-nya dan keSLENGEANnya kalo ngajar. yaaa, kurang lebih sih program belajar yang lebih banyakan intermezzo-nya daripada belajar benerannya. contohnya gini: baru aja 5 menit nerangin materi, trus tiba2 di tengah materi dia bilang: "oh iya, ada satu cerita..". dan akhirnya mengalirlah cerita2 yang sebenernya gak pernah ada hubungannya ma materi yang lagi diterangin. biasanya yang kayak gitu lebih sering muncul di contoh2 materi yang lagi diterangin, dan lebih sering berakhir dengan gak nyambung dan "ya, begitulah". akhirnya ninggalin persepsi masing2 di benak mahasiswanya. dan waktunya bisa 15 menitan sendiri! tar abis itu nerangin 5 menit, intermezzo lagi 15 menit. yaa, aku sih seneng2 aja, itung-itung penyegaran otak di tengah kepenatan aku yang selalu belajar terus.. tsah! *boong tingkat dewa*

kadang aku suka aneh sendiri *aneh? -__-""* terus suka bertanya2 sendiri juga, "ni dosen beneran lulusan S3 gak sih? kalo gak, koq bisa2nya dia nyandang tu titel sambil trus ngajarin mahasiswa yang gak cuman S1 aja di universitas aku? kalo iya, pastinya tu dosen abis lulus S3 kepalanya kepentok apaan tau pe akhirnya 'otak'nya rada2 gimana gitu?" abisan, pola pikir dia tuh beda banget ma dosen2 kebanyakan aku yang laen. dia tuh slengean, santai, kliatan gak kayak seorang Doktor lulusan universitas luar negeri, tapi di 'hahah~heheh learning program'-nya (sekarang disingkat HHLP) sering banget aku dapet 'materi2' yang gak bakal aku dapetin di kelas dan dengan dosen manapun. gimana nggak? dia itu sekuler yang pola pikirnya 'beda' dengan cara penyampaian ideologinya yang 'cuek' abis. santai sesantai2nya, Jek! haha.

kayak waktu pelatihan itu -yang akhirnya bisa aku simpulin kalo waktu itu aku bukan lagi pelatihan penulian skripsi, tapi lagi nonton lawak. ketawa mulu sih..- tu dosen mulai dengan  5 menit pertamanya ngebuka kelas agak2 serius. ngebahas slide power point-nya, teratur, mengalir, rapi. tapi di menit ke-6, mulai masuk deh ke HHLP. dari yang pertama cuman bikin nyengir2 meringis gak jelas malu2 gitu, ampe bisa bikin yang ngakak pe guling bantal jadi korban. ngocak pisanlah, pokonya sih! tapi akhirnya tu dosen mulai ngeluarin 'materi' langka ini: ngomongin totalitas. gara2nya acara yang dirancang jam 7 pagi, dia dateng jam 7 teng *termasuk aku, hoho* tapi masih banyak mahasiswa yang dateng pe lebih dari 45 menit telatnya. dia bilang sih itu nganggep remeh kelas ini, soalnya emang bukan kelas matakuliah. akhirnya mulailah dia dengan 'doktrin'-nya itu..

totalitas. katanya, ini nih yang belom dipunyain ma orang indonesia. ngelakuin apa2 gak pernah total. contohnya, lagi kuliah ingetnya liburan, pas lagi liburan ingetnya kuliah. ya tugas2 yang belom kelarlah, nilai2 yang belom keuruslah, bla bla bla. waaahh, kapan nikmatnya idup kalo begitu terus? makanya kita tuh kalo lagi nglakuin sesuatu mesti total. totalitas buat ngelakuin sesuatu yang udah kita buat komitmennya di awal2, harus bener2 diaplikasi-in. kalo kita pengen idup bahagia..

haha. bener banget. eksplanasinya sih sederhana banget, tapi ngelakuinnya susaaah banget. kayak kalo mu bikin tugas (lets say skripsi, bcuz it becomes my concern now. tee-hee) udah buka laptop, buku di depan mata, eh gara2 liat mouse nganggur jadilah buka game dulu. maen game yang tadinya pn cuman 10 menit aja, jadilah berjam2 dan akhirnya laporan tertunda dengan kata2: besok lagi ah, cape..
ato gak, udah buka laptop, colok modem niat buat bahan laporan dari dunia maya, eh tau2 malah FB-an dulu ahh barang 15 menit. dan pasti ujungnya ketebak: FB-an berjam2 dan kata2 'tugasnya besok lagi ah' jadi pamungkas buka laptop saat itu. wah, ya gak bakal beres2 dong kan ya? makanya totalitas itu perlu. saat lagi ngerjain suatu hal, ya udah TOTAL ma kerjaan itu aja. kalo lagi kerja, jangan mikirin pen cepet2 istirahat, tar pas istirahat malah mikirin kerjaan. sungguh menyia2kan keindahan hidup! *cenah.. hehe.

totalitas, prioritas. biar cepet mentas dah.. :D


*langsung ngacir matiin koneksi internet, inget ma proposal skripsi yang masih salah2 dan belom ke-edit*

Friday, October 15, 2010

Blurry Silhouette

mengecup dinginnya embun

lewat langkah

tanpa desah

pun merah
: hilang
Marilyn Manson 3